Lyrics
I should know better, I should be past this by now
But I’m stuck here in this cycle, broken shells and broken vows
You must resent me for it, I do
I still remember when I haven’t been “worth it”
Does my trauma keep You up at night or are you sitting on some cloud
Up there in judgement? Expecting worship? For me to be “over it?”
I have chapters in my mind with no vocabulary
Nostalgia screams I’m down here all alone
And You’re not some genie in a lamp but I wait for You
To pull the rug out every single time
What happened to childlike faith?
What is grace beyond a meal routine, a punishment for being late?
I’ve been hardened to a cynic, waiting for the other shoe to drop
On Holy Ground
I still attempt to praise You
But I feel so estranged from You.
Please just make me feel something beyond a hollow “amen”
Please don’t let me stay here in this fear of offense
Show me the Real You, release me from the dungeon of my mind
I don’t think I know You, but I know I haven’t left myself behind
Take my pride and give me freedom, break me open and give me peace
I know I’m only bone and skin, make me over underneath
Help me want to know You, I just want to know You
Help me want to know You, I just want to know You
