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23: shaky knees, insomniatic dreaming
Falling short, falling down, like tears aimed at the ceiling
“It wasn’t meant to be this way,” I whisper in the shower
My husband asks “are you okay?” every single hour
I got a job for its healthcare to feel well enough to do it
And that’s just fine, nevermind, I really want to quit
Thought my life would be sunshine and frolicking through flowers
Not yelling at night skies, “please touch me with Your power”
Cause I’ve done the work You gave me
I thought You’d have something to say to me
You say,
“Rest. Darling, let Me love you, it’s what I do best.
Just rest, let My arms around You, breathe into my chest
And rest.”
“God? Everyone keeps praying for me… they just keep praying.
I don’t even know if You hear them, either.”
Do my friends who got degrees to pay off school debt regret it?
And do my parents think that I’m a failure cause I didn’t?
Can I be qualified with weepy eyes and sacrifice?
Am I just traumatized from feeling like a waste of life?
Have I hurt enough for You to see me?
Will You fight for me or watch me, silently?
You say,
“Rest. Darling, let Me love you, it’s what I do best.
Just rest, let My arms around You, breathe into my chest!”
I’m falling behind in the hustle and grind
And I’m losing my mind cause it’s not worth trying
You say,
“Rest! Just rest!”
You say,
“Rest! Just rest!”
